Firstly, what is this about?
That's easy. For a long time, probably most of my life, I've always been searching for something, even whilst not knowing exactly what it was that was missing, what it was I was seeking.
I've always felt I didn't quite belong in some way, that I should be doing something other than what I was doing, that perhaps, somehow, I was destined for something better or bigger.
That has maybe explained why I've often been restless, why I've often felt a little 'trapped' in some way.
Though I had a 'career' in the MoD for 20 years, a career that I'm proud of, where I achieved a great deal, I was never entirely happy, which is why when the opportunity arose to do something else, I took it, despite the uncertainty that that produced.
I moved from a career as a scientist/engineer, ending up as an International expert in the field of flight control and simulation and worked on a number of current and future aircraft designs, to something completely different.
A career as a photographer, primarily, but also looking at creative endeavours, game coding, writing, art, design, all as a freelancer. Scary, harder work, a lot less money, but so much more rewarding.
Even there though, I was still, at times, restless, at other times unfulfilled, even if only in small, niggling ways.
It's been a tumultuous few years, as it has been for many, with the tribulations of Covid and all the problems that has caused, with loss, with numerous 'life' niggles and minor annoyances.
At times it's felt as though 'life' is harder than it should be, that everything is going wrong.
I've gradually come to realise though that the opposite is true.
That life is wonderful, life is amazing, beautiful, magical, to be appreciated every precious moment.
We shouldn't let day to day 'annoyances' and problems intrude on our enjoying everything that life provides and everything that it offers.
As my mind has 'opened' to such realisations, so I have become aware of so much more.
Some things have suddenly become clear whereas before there was murkiness, connections have started to fall into place if you like.
There is an optimism and excitement about what is coming, whilst at the same time still being very aware that 'living' the life we do in our 'modern' society, can be very difficult at times.
I've always had a fascination with mysticism, with legend and myth. I've always been certain that there is more to the 'World' than 'science' tells us, that 'science' can't explain everything.
Even whilst still maintaining my scientific and engineering background approach to things, I've found that what has often (and still is by many) considered 'hokum' actually makes more and more sense.
Even 'real Science' is increasingly uncovering more questions than answers, things once considered pure mysticism are gaining scientific credence.
'New Age' beliefs, thinking, and lifestyles are suddenly appearing sensible and desirable.
I am, in short, waking up.
This blog will be my story, as I journey through the world opening up before me to see where it leads.
I'll be keeping my scientific curiosity and engineering approach, so a little scepticism, but with my mind fully open to what it may receive, open to things that science either doesn't understand, or recognise, to things that many consider nonsense and will try to explain what I find, what I feel, and where it leads.
I hope you'll follow my journey.